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- there is a list of questions
- i want to ask but never will
- there is a list of questions
- i go through in my head
- every time i’m alone
- and my mind can’t stop itself from searching for you
- there is a list of questions i want to ask
- so if you’re listening somewhere
- here i am asking them
- what do you think happens
- to the love that’s left behind
- when two lovers leave
- how blue do you think it gets
- before it passes away
- does it pass away
- or does it still exist somewhere
- waiting for us to come back
- when we lied to ourselves by
- calling this unconditional and left
- which one of us hurt more
- i shattered into a million little pieces
- and those pieces shattered into a million more
- crumbled into dust till
- there was nothing left of me but the silence
- tell me how love
- how did the grieving feel for you
- how did the mourning hurt
- how did you peel your eyes open after every blink
- knowing i’d never be there staring back
- it must be hard to live with what ifs
- there must always be this constant dull aching
- in the pit of your stomach
- trust me
- i feel it too
- how in the world did we get here
- how did we live through it
- and how are we still living
- how many months did it take
- before you stopped thinking of me
- or are you still thinking of me
- cause if you are
- then maybe i am too
- thinking of you
- thinking of me
- with me
- in me
- around me
- everywhere
- you and me and us
- do you still touch yourself to thoughts of me
- do you still imagine my naked naked tiny tiny body
- pressed into yours
- do you still imagine the curve of my spine and
- how you wanted to rip it out of me
- cause the way it dipped into my
- perfectly rounded bottom
- drove you crazy
- baby
- sugar baby
- sweet baby
- ever since we left
- how many times did you pretend
- it was my hand stroking you
- how many times did you search for me in your fantasies
- and end up crying instead of coming
- don’t you lie to me
- i can tell when you’re lying
- cause there’s always that little bit of
- arrogance in your response
- are you angry with me
- are you okay
- and would you tell me if you’re not
- and if we ever see each other again
- do you think you’d reach out and hold me
- like you said you would
- the last time we spoke and
- you talked of the next time we would
- or do you think we’d just look
- shake in our skin as we pine to
- absorb as much as we can of each other
- cause by this time we’ve probably got
- someone else waiting at home
- we were good together weren’t we
- and is it wrong that i’m asking you these questions
- tell me love
- that you have been
- looking for these answers too
- you call to tell me you miss me
- i turn to face the front door of the house
- waiting for a knock
- days later you call to say you need me
- but still aren’t here
- the dandelions on the lawn
- are rolling their eyes in disappointment
- the grass has declared you yesterday’s news
- what do i care
- if you love me
- or miss me
- or need me
- when you aren’t doing anything about it
- if i’m not the love of your life
- i’ll be the greatest loss instead